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Love, Jonathan: Quick Thoughts on Love, Victor

Updated: Jul 19, 2020

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Dear Victor,

You’re right when you say that not everybody’s story is like Simon’s. I’m sure you know that not everybody’s story is like yours either. Either way, I appreciate both of your stories so much. There are pieces of my story that I see in Simon’s story and then pieces of my story that I see in yours. It’s crazy to think that even though we’re all different people, our experiences sometimes line up and the things we feel aren’t really that different after all.

Sitting and watching the first season made me feel like I was there with you. I was with you as you tried to be attracted to Mia but failed. I was with you when you tried to make a move on Ben and then you ran because you were afraid. I was with you when you felt like home started to feel like a shitty place to be (your words, not mine). And it’s not watching you that made me feel like I was with you but it’s because… well, I’ve been in those places before. I’ve tried so hard to be attracted to someone that I just didn’t like. I even prayed for the “right” feelings, but they never came. And yeah, I’m gay too.

My favorite part, by far, was when you went to New York. I loved seeing Bram and Simon and literally screamed when they showed up. I loved that Bram showed you that there’s not one way to be gay. Being gay is a part of who you are but it’s definitely not all of who you are. You’re still you. You’re still Victor – your mom’s blessing, the big brother, the basketball player. None of that changes just because you’re gay.

I appreciate you because you’re also a person of color. A lot of times our stories get looked over. It’s as if we can’t be gay or our stories aren’t important enough. And most of the time, it’s the gay white guys that tell us how to act, what to wear, and what to say when we come out. But you’ve reminded us that it’s not always like that. For a lot of us, it’s different. It takes time because maybe we’re not sure of our identities or maybe our family situations are difficult, and that’s okay.

Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks. Thanks for the reminder that we each deserve a great love story. I believe that that’s true but I think what’s even truer is that we are all already great love stories and we all need to be heard.

Love, Jonathan

P.S. I hope you get greenlit for a season two.